Long, long time ago back in the 80s when I was first starting to like girls, I began to develop the expansion fetish. Now every other guy at school liked really really really skinny twig like girls so I thought there was something wrong with me. To add to my worries I also thought that werewolves, alien cat women (thank you Star Trek) and Maid Marion Fox was really really hot too.
This caused me lots of confusion and even got a psychologist wondering if I was gay because I told him I didn't like the girls that everyone was telling me I should like. I think it would have been easier if I was gay because then I would have had other people to be gay with.
This resulted in me writing stories and drawing pictures for wank purposes and then being horrified at what I had just done, burning all the evidence so no one would ever see it, and repeating. It was like trying to dispose of a dead body every few days or so and suffering the blind terror that someone was going to see you doing it.
Now we flash forward to the late 90's and I am first able to get on the internet. Friend told me it was like Alice's Restaurant, you can get anything you want. So one day looking at the Infoseek home page I typed in “Inflatable Werewolf” and the first link was the “FurSize Inflatable Furries” page.
Several click later and I had broken down in tears. I cried so hard I could not see the screen in front of me. My whole life I had though something was terribly wrong with me. Now, well there was still something terribly wrong with me, but now I wasn't alone. I had people, it was like going from an empty planet to a crowded room.
This instilled in me a tremendous sense of debt to all these wonderful artist, writers, and people in the furry and expansion community, you gave me EVERYTHING. The only way I could think to repay this kindness was to add to wonderful world. I starting doing art and writing again. I posted it to the web in the hopes that someone would enjoy it and maybe be inspired to do art as well.
Now to my ranting, lately I have noticed several artists here on DA, FA, and various Art Chans being rude, abusive, and sometimes down right batshit crazy to their fans. There is a common thread that these artists believe that the fans OWE them for them graciously gracing them with their art and if they don't provide sufficient money and ass kissing they will just go away and take their art with them.
Well I have one thing to tell all these people, FUCK YOU! That's right FUCK YOU, FUCK the horse you rode in on and FUCK your dead great grandmother. Most of you don't remember a time without the internet, most of you don't know what it feels like to be absolutely totally alone and I certainly never want to wish that on ANYONE!
Fans and artists of our community owe you NOTHING, but you owe them EVERYTHING! When you realize this you are going to become a much better person, you will become someone that is trying to make the world a better place.